Forever

There was a song that I heard on the radio the other day and it said something how if love isnt meant to be forever, then what is forever for? So I thought about it. You cant really do anything on this earth "forever" (aka until you die) except to love. True love will never fade even through the ups and down of life.

If you love for money...it will fade
If you love for beauty...it will fade
Love someone for who they are and always will be...love will never fade
<3

Eyes.

I went to the eye doctor today (I hate eye appointments). Some of you might not no me very well, but I have bad eye history. But I'll eplain that later, pretty much I just want to thank God right now that I have perfect vision in my right eye. There is a chance that I could lose all my vision in my left eye, so I have to protect my right eye with my life haha. 6 years ago, I use to be able to see 20x25 out of my left eye...it has decreased majorly. Today it was 20x100. Over 6 years of time it decreased that much! That is a little scary for me.

Story time:

This is the story behind my left eye. I was born with a cataract and had it removed when I was like a month old. From that point out, my mom put a contact in my left eye and patch on my right eye to try to strengthen my left eye as much as possible. When I got older, still keeping the patch wear trend, I wore glasses on top of that contact, still trying to strenghten my left eye. When I was 5 years old, they had to do an eyelid lift because not only was there a cataract on my lens, my eye wasnt fully developed so it was smaller than my right eye, causing my left lid to droop. So, I kept on wearing the contact, patch and glasses. (Can't remember when I stopped wearing the patch) With the naked eye (my left one) all I could see was if it was dark or light in a room. I remember walking in my living room and just seeing the windows, the light shining in, and that was it. When I was 11, just the contact and glasses at this time, my eye started to reject the contact. It hurt really bad anytime I would try to put it in. So Dr. Grin said that I needed to go ahead and have my lens implant that they were planning to do when I was 13. I had my surgery and everything seemed to be going ok. I went back for my yearly check up and Dr. Grin told my mom and I that it had fallen forward, but they were going to try to fix it without surgery. (Sound painful? Well it was) First they tried to dialate my eye and have my lay flat on my back for 3 hours...boring. That didnt work. So she sent me over to her husbands off who is an eye surgeon, and he numbed my eye up, told me to squeeze my moms hand and then he tried to TAP IT BACK IN with this lovely little metal hook. It hurt! And guess what, it didnt work either. So then I had my 2nd lens implant when I was 12. It was sucessful! They put in a bigger lens so that it wont fall forward again and I havent had trouble since. Except for losing vision in that eye. Im incredibly near-sighted. After the surgery, they were impressed because I was suppose to see like 20x200 but I saw 20x25. My vision has decreased over the years, but still blessed that I'm not blind!

Think.

"It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got"

Think about that...

reading minds*

If you could have one super power, what would it be?

*I chose reading minds because sometimes people either expect you to read their minds, or they don't tell you what they truly think of you. Both of these drive me crazy. For me, if I am annoying you, then I would rather be told that I am annoying you over me trying to figure out if you want me to talk to you or not. Or sometimes people will get mad that you cant read their mind, like, "you should have known that already!" Its a mind battle within itself.

I just want to give a quick shout out to Mr. Robertson. It gives me confidence to know that I'm not just sitting here having a conversation with myself. Thanks!

Food.

Ecclesiastes 6:7 –“ All mans efforts are for his mouth, yet his appetite is never satisfied.”

Love Jesus more than your stomach.

Prayers...

Serving others. God has created us to serve others. Do we? Sometimes maybe. All the time? No. Serving others, doesn't always just help the person you're serving, it helps you too. We need to help people in anyway we can. If we don't we are selfish and self-centered. It takes sacrifice and love. Some people say, “Well, I'm too busy.” Fine. Pray. Our prayer is the best thing we can do. We can help them even more by praying for them then trying to do it on our own. Yes, it takes time out of your day, but you can make a huge difference in other peoples life. Be a prayer warrior. Don't let others down OR let Him down. He put you here to make a difference. Don't be ordinary when you could be extraordinary. Pray.

Dreams?

Lately I have been thinking about my dreams and what it would take to achieve them. Then sometimes I actually start to see my dream come to life, but its ripped out from under my feet. I have dreams that I feel its something I'm suppose to do, or something that I've wanted to do all my life, then something stops it. Do you ever have giants in the way of your dreams? It happens to me all the time. Sometimes you have someone that discourages your dreams, telling you that it wont work, or that its not safe. You then start to doubt your own dream. It happens everytime. You leave your comfort zone and then not too long after that, you want to go running back to the warm fuzzy feeling. Why cant I just ignore the voices I hear and achieve my dreams? I'm still trying to figure out how to be strong enough or find other ways to achieve my dreams, but nothing's working.